Di Imɔshɔnal Sayd fɔ Kansa We Wi Nɔ Evin Tink Bɔt

We dɛn kam fɔ no se yu gɛt kansa, i tan lɛk laytin we de blo yu layf. Insay wan smɔl tɛm, ɔl wetin wi dɔn drim bɔt kin tɔn ɔpsayd. Wi de pe atɛnshɔn pan tritmɛnt , ɔpreshɔn, ɛn mɛrɛsin. Bɔt biɛn ɔl dis, sɔntin de we wi nɔ de tink bɔt, sɔntin we kin brok wi bɔku tɛm frɔm insay. Dat na di saykolojik sayd fɔ dis joyn. Tide, wi go tɔk bɔt dis imɔshɔnal fɛt, we kɔmɔt frɔm di stori bɔt wan yɔŋ uman we bin gɛt dis kayn ɛkspiriɛns.

Aw layf bin tɔn ɔpsayd

Dis na di stori bɔt wan yɔŋ uman we nem Karisa. Bifo kansa kam, i bin jɔs tan lɛk mi ɛn yu, we i ol twɛnti ia. I bin dɔn ɛngage, i bin de wok na wan biuti salon, ɛn i bin de liv gladi wit in padi dɛn. I bin dɔn muf go na nyu os wit in bɔyfrɛn ɛn i bin de drim bɔt in mared. Laif bin de go fayn fayn wan.

Wan de we i bin de shaw, i fil wan smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl smɔl. We i go na klinik, dɛn se bikɔs i jɔs ol 30 ia, i nɔto ɛnitin we siriɔs, ɛn fɔ kam bak insay 6 mɔnt. Di dɔktɔ dɛn bin tink se i kin bi fat tumor, we nɔ gɛt kansa ``(Lipoma)''.

Bɔt afta 6 mɔnt, i fil se di lump de big. I nɔ bin ivin ebul fɔ si dɔktɔ di rayt tɛm bikɔs ɔf COVID-19 . Pan ɔl we i bin bigin fɔ fred bad bad wan, i bin mek insɛf biliv se bikɔs i bin yɔŋ ɛn nɔbɔdi nɔ gɛt kansa na in famili, i nɔ go bi prɔblɛm.

Fɔ dɔn, di dɔktɔ tɔk ɛn gi am di nyus we i nɔ want fɔ yɛri. "Yu gɛt kansa." Wɔd nɔ go ebul fɔ tɔk bɔt di shɔk we i bin fil da tɛm de. Di 5 minit drayv fɔ go na os bin tan lɛk se i go de sote go. I bin de tink bɔt in mared, we i kam wantɛm wantɛm se i gɛt wan kayn bɔdi kansa we dɛn kɔl `(Stage II Invasive Ductal Carcinoma)`.

Di big prɔblɛm fɔ am na dat i bin de gɛt fɔ dil wit ɔl dis we i ol. We i bigin fɔ tek kemotɛrapi , di ɔda pipul dɛn we bin de kam insay fɔ tritmɛnt na uman dɛn we ol 50, 60, 70 ia. Na in na bin di yɔŋ pɔsin we bin de na di rum. Dɛn bin de luk am lɛk se, ‘Wetin dis smɔl pikin de du ya?’ I bin rili de wɔnda di sem tin.

Dɛn tɛm dɛn de bin pas lɛk drim.

Afta a bigin fɔ trit mi, a bin fil lɛk se a nɔ ebul fɔ du natin. I bin tan lɛk se a de luk misɛf frɔm ɔdasay na mi bɔdi. Tritmɛnt bin de ɔltɛm, ɔpreshɔn, mɛrɛsin... dɔktɔ dɛn bin de tich mi bɔt mɛrɛsin, fɔ go klas, gi mi tin dɛn fɔ rid, ɛn bɔku tin dɛn fɔ mek tɛm fɔ. Ɔl dis bin apin insay COVID-19, so a bin gɛt fɔ du ɔltin mi wan.

Akɔdin to Carissa, da tɛm de, i nɔ bin gɛt ɛni filin atɔl. Lɛk rɔbɔt.

Ɔda prɔblɛm dɛn we dɛn kin gɛt we dɛn de trit dɛn

• Tink bɔt pikin dɛn: Bifo i bigin fɔ tek kemo, i bin mek dɛn frɔz in eg dɛn bikɔs i nɔ bin ebul fɔ lɔs di chans fɔ bɔn pikin tumara bambay. Di we aw dɛn bin de du IVF, ɛn di injɛkshɔn dɛn we dɛn bin de gi am ɔltɛm frɔm in bɔyfrɛn, na bin big big lod.
• I bin de lɔs: Lɛk bɔku uman dɛn, Carissa bin si se fɔ lɔs in ia i nɔ bin izi fɔ am. As pɔsin we sabi fɔ mek fayn fayn tin dɛn, i bin proud fɔ in lɔng tik tik lɔk dɛn. We in ia bigin fɔ fɔdɔm insay wan grup, i bin no se na tɛm fɔ kɔt am. We in bɔyfrɛn sheb in ed, i bin fil lɛk fɔ stɔp ɛn kray. We i bin de plan fɔ mared, i bin kam fɔ no se i nɔ go izi fɔ go bay mared klos we nɔ gɛt ia.

Aw fɔ bia wit dɛn tranga tɛm ya

We di numbness we wi bin gɛt we wi bin de trit wi nɔ bin de igen, i bin rili sɔri. We wi de du tritmɛnt, wi de na ``survivor mode''. Na we da rutin de dɔn, na tɛm fɔ tink bɔt wetin wi dɔn lɔs. I tan lɛk se wi de fil bad fɔ wi ol layf.

Bɔt Carissa bin ɔndastand di prɛshɔn. Naw i de go to dɔktɔ we de mɛn pipul dɛn ɛn i de na wan sɔpɔt grup we gɛt pipul dɛn we gɛt ɛkspiriɛns. Famili ɛn padi dɛn na di tin we i gɛt pas ɔl.

Naw i de tek ɔmon tɛrapi. I gɛt sayd ɛfɛkt dɛn. Hot flash, di mud swing, ɛn nɔ ebul fɔ slip. De dɛn stil de we i kin kray na di bafa. Bɔt i de lan fɔ liv wan de wan tɛm. We i lisin to gud siŋ, tɔk to in padi, ɛn plan in mared tumara bambay, dat kin mek i gladi.

"Dis na had, bot a de olwes trai to tink fo di positif sait. Bikos a no se maindset na evritin."