Kuongororwa Kwandakanga Ndisingafungi Kuti Ndingawana: Nyaya Yangu yeBipolar (Bipolar Disorder)

Ndakapinda muchipatara chepfungwa muna 2003 pandakatanga kufunga zvekuzviuraya, kuona zvinhu zvisiri zvechokwadi, uye kuora mwoyo kwakanyanya. Ndipo pandakaonekwa navanachiremba kuti ndine chirwere chebipolar disorder . Hazvina kushamisa tichifunga nezvezviratidzo zvandaiva nazvo panguva iyoyo. Asi zvakandishamisa zvikuru. Nekuti ndisati ndapinda pamusuwo weEmergency Treatment Unit (ETU) yechipatara, dai paine akandibvunza, ndingadai ndakati, "Ndiri bho." Ndaisaziva kuti chirwere chepfungwa chii.

Hupenyu hwangu hwakanga hwakaita sei ndisati ndaongororwa chirwere ichi?

Ndakakurira mumhuri yevanhu vepakati nepakati. Baba vangu vaityaira marori uye amai vangu vaiva amai vemba. Takanga tisiri vapfumi zvakanyanya, asi taiva nehupenyu hwakagadzikana. Taiva nemba yedu kumaruwa, mota mbiri, uye inishuwarenzi yehutano. Zvichitaurwa zviri nyore, taiva mhuri yakajairika. Pfungwa mumba medu yaive yekuti murume anofanira kungogadzirisa chero dambudziko ripi zvaro raiuya kwaari, uye kuti kana akangozvizora madhaka, zvese zvaizova zvakanaka.

Ndingangove ndichinyanya kuwedzeredza, asi mhuri yangu yaitarisira kwandiri zvechokwadi. Ndakadzidziswa kugara ndakatendeseka, ndakadzikama, uye ndichiremekedza . Fungidzira kuti zvakaoma sei kuti munhu ane kuora mwoyo kana kuti ane mania arambe aine hunhu uhwu.

Pandakanga ndisingakwanise kuita zvaitarisirwa nevabereki vangu, vakandiranga. Pfungwa dzangu padzakaramba dzichiwedzera kuipa, zvirango zvandaiwana zvakawedzera kuoma. Zvirango zvazvakanyanya kuoma, ndakaramba ndichingozviparadzanisa nevamwe. Kutaura zvazviri, sezvo pakanga pasina mushonga wechirwere ichi chepfungwa mupfungwa dzangu, mamiriro angu aiwedzera kuipa zuva nezuva.

Panguva iyoyo, ndaigara ndichifunga zvekuzviuraya zuva nezuva . Handina kumbobvira ndafunga kuti zvaisawanzoitika, nekuti hapana akataura nezvazvo. Ndaifunga kuti munhu wese aifunga zvakafanana. Zuva randakazosarudza kuzviuraya, zvakandishamisa. Asi nerombo rakanaka, mumwe munhu akaona kuchinja kwemaitiro angu akandibvunza zvakananga kuti, "Uri kufunga nezvekuzviuraya here?"

Ndakanga ndisina chikonzero chekureva nhema, saka ndakati "hongu." Panguva iyoyo, akati tinofanira kuenda kuchipatara nekukasika. Ndakashamisika. Ndakamutarisa ndikati:

Pandakaziva kuti ndine bipolar...

Ndinoyeuka, ndine chirwere chepfungwa chinonzi bipolar disorder.Mubvunzo wekutanga wandakabvunza chiremba wepfungwa pachipatara pandakaudzwa kuti ndinawo waiva wekuti, "Mazviziva sei, chiremba?" Ndakabvunza. Akati ndaiva nezviratidzo zvechirwere ichi, uye kuti zvinoshamisa kuti hapana akanga ambochiona kwenguva yakareba kudaro.

Asi hazvina kundishamisa. Nekuti, ndiani muhupenyu hwangu aiziva nezvenyaya dzehutano hwepfungwa dzakadai? Hapana mumwe wedu akambodzidza nezvezvirwere zvepfungwa. Taifunga kuti chirwere chepfungwa chaive chinhu chaiitika kuvanhu vaitaura zvine ruzha, zvechisimba, kutaura zvisina kujeka, uye vasina njere. Ndaive ndisina chisimba, ndaive ndakadzidza zvakanaka. Ndaive nebasa. Zvichienderana nekunzwisisa kwedu kushoma, vanhu vane chirwere chepfungwa havagone kushanda. Saka, ndingava sei nechirwere chepfungwa?

Kutaura zvazviri, mushure mekuongororwa kwangu, ndakadzidza zvakawanda nezvechirwere chepfungwa, bipolar disorder, uye ini pachangu. Ndaifanira kudzidza kufunga nenzira itsva, kuti ndizvivake patsva. Ndaifanira kujaira migumisiro yemishonga. Ndaifanira kutarisana nematambudziko akawanda akanga akavanzwa mupfungwa dzangu ndisingatombozvizivi. Chinonyanya kukosha, ndakadzidza kutora mutoro wemaitiro angu. Kunyangwe dai akanga asiri mhosva yangu zvachose, akanga asiri mhosva yemumwe munhu futi.

Pfungwa dzisiri dzechokwadi pamusoro pezvirwere zvepfungwa munharaunda yedu

Vazhinji vedu tine mafungiro asina kunaka nezvezvirwere zvepfungwa, ndosaka vanhu vazhinji vakaita seni vachinonoka kutsvaga rubatsiro. Ngatitarisei mafungiro aya asina kunaka uye kuti chokwadi ndechipi.

Rwendo rweKupora: Matambudziko neKudzidza

Rwendo urwu rwave rwakaoma zvikuru. Rwendo rwave rwuchindisiya ndakashungurudzika zvikuru. Uye rwakatora nguva inoshamisa. Daro riri pakati pekuongororwa kwechirwere nekupora hariyerwi nemavhiki kana mwedzi, asi nemakore.

Asi nhasi, nekuda kwebasa rakaoma randakaedza kuti ndinzwisise dambudziko rangu rebipolar uye ini pachangu, ndava nyanzvi yerwendo rwangu rwekupora. Izvi zvinoreva kuti ndava nenguva yakawanda yekunakidzwa nehupenyu hwangu pane kuramba ndichifunga nezvehurwere hwangu. Rwendo urwu rwandidzidzisa kuti pasinei nekuti tinowira sei, nerubatsiro rwakakodzera uye kutsunga, tinogona kumuka zvakare.

Kana uri kutambura nedambudziko repfungwa kana chimwe chinhu chiri kukunetsa, ndapota usatambura uri wega. Taura nachiremba wako. Ndiro rubatsiro rwakanakisisa rwaunogona kuzvipa iwe pachako.